FAWM: "Once, I"

Once, I

2025 by @lemoan

Liner Notes

When I was 7 years old, my mom was diagnosed with brain cancer and later on my father decided to move back to his hometown along with my brother due to some unresolved issues. My mom and I were under the care of her family, aunts and uncles, cousins and everyone. I lived with her for some time until she decided that it was best for me to live with my father once I make it to primary/secondary school, and I did. I'd visit her every December during Christmas and New year's eve and every other major holiday. During the month of August in 2020 I received a call from her number but my brother was the one speaking, telling us to come back as soon as possible. It's about a 2 hour drive to her but the moment I made it there, she had passed. I don't remember exactly what happened after that. It's been 4 years but I have been doing better since then. I suppose this song is just a brief message to her. I'm not fully satisfied with how it turned out but I will be keeping this and working on it more after fawm. #orchestral #electronic

Song breakdown:

Lyrics

Once I was a boy Surrounded by faces I used to know Everything was perfect I couldn't ask for anything better I could've been better

If I knew that you'd leave us behind If I knew that we'd have no more time To say goodbye Say goodbye

Now that I'm older I think I feel better But that's just what what I tell myself I would give anything To feel your touch once again I'll always remember "I'll be back in December"

If I could turn back time I'd tell him to stay where he was I'd tell him to make The most of his days With you

Once I was a boy Surrounded by faces Surrounded by love Now that I'm older I think I feel better That's just what I tell myself

Comments

@don0713 2025

very moving song. Really soft, dreamy yet engaging. Your vocal is perfect for the song. I really like this

@val 2025

This has a beautiful, dreamlike quality that makes the story feel a little less sad than it is. The strings are wonderful, and I like how you incorporated modern sounds with classic vibes. Very cool.