do you still have the note i used to tell you that i love you i wrote a letter too but i threw it away do you still have the flowers on your bookshelf that i made you if you don’t, then it’s only me who’s to blame the first time that we parted i didn’t get rid of a thing i hid them anywhere you’d never see but now we’ve tried and failed it’s all seemed a little different the parts of you i’ve kept are inside of me

i hate your stupid haircut and the jokes you thought were funny and i hate how, when i needed you, you would always come running i hate the way you looked at me and how your lips met mine and i hate that you seem happier without me in your life

you sit across the classroom, you don’t look in my direction i don’t say a word, i make sure you never know that i spend most of my time regretting this deflection of the greatest love i’ve felt, of the person i let go it’s a complicated issue which i’m not quite ready to face and i don’t think i’ll ever be alright i’ll keep myself busy just to fill this empty space this chasm you don’t know you left behind

i miss your stupid haircut and the jokes you thought were funny and i miss how, when i needed you, you would always come running i miss the way you looked at me and how your lips met mine and i miss the way you made me happy when you were in my life

i was falling apart, i’d have broke if i’d stayed i tried my hardest but you refused to change but i changed the story so nobody’s to blame i’ll defend you even if i’m fading away you showed me what love is supposed to feel like i’ll keep you here, forever, in the back of my mind don’t forget how it felt to look into my eyes i hate that i miss you, but i’ll be alright