slipping...

by @cphaurckker

Challenge: PERSONAL SOUNDTRACK
There is no demo for this song.

Liner Notes

Early last year, i was diagnosed with a seizure disorder. In the scheme of things it's not a huge deal, as it's completely controlled by medication now, but the whole idea of checking out of my own brain for a short period during an episode still haunts me sometimes.

Some random thing a friend said online today about the burrito (for no discernable reason) sparked a bit of that feeling today, so I scribbled out some reflections.

Except for the burrito (which sort of feels out of place in the current version, but I left it because of the original inspiration), it's kind of dark, so i'm imagining some kind of dark psychological metal thing, with lots of minor chords, as the song also includes...

Lyrics

focal flares, time is lost veils pierced, and then re-crossed logic fails, awareness fades could be seconds, could be decades

no clear idea of what happens all the curves suddenly flattened temporal lobe overloaded synapses broken and corroded

memories of never-spoken words trying to eat the burrito backwards why do all chords include minor thirds? constant draining of reserves slipping, slipping, slipping...

fluttered lids, repeated motions no remembrances, receding notions spaces blank, boxes unchecked grasping at concepts I cannot detect

hate being robbed of self-control emotions swing from hot to cold always bracing for the next go-round and I can't help but let others down

memories of never-spoken words trying to eat the burrito backwards why do all chords include minor thirds? constant draining of reserves slipping, slipping, slipping...

Comments

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@janeg

I have memories of unspoken words! Ask my husband about things I am sure I told him. So glad you got the medication you need but how scary - well captured in these lyrics.

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@cts

I've had non-sequitur moments such as this burrito situation. This is a good way to address, I think. Very sorry to read about your condition but I'm glad that you're getting a remedy for it. The 5th verse is the heart string puller for me. I especially relate to this line: hate being robbed of self-control. It's very relatable and so true in many cases. I'm curious to hear how this one turns out. Let me know, please.

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@heather

Wow, this is so cool. Amazing images and descriptions of what that feels like, both in the moment and afterwards (never sure when it might strike again). There are many great lines but i especially love “veils pierced and then re-crossed.” I hope you set this to music, it deserves to be heard!

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