Once More

by @mikedebenham · @stephenwordsmith

Liner Notes

Mike: I've been meaning to collaborate with @stephenwordsmith for years. Here he's managed to mine some hope out of one of the worst of humanity's regular demonstrations of inhumanity. I'm not sure my setting works - it's a bit too dainty for the subject matter - but maybe someone else can give Stephen's lyrics a better home.

This being the pointy end of FAWM, I managed to miscalculate the length of the bridge while recording the guitar, so couldn't fit in all the lyrics. Sorry (and many thanks), Stephen!

Lyrics

You were cradling a glass Of warm life that would pass At the world-worn cafe cross the street I watched the steam rise Til it lit your grey eyes As my own they would suddenly meet

You had chanced to escape In the grey morning paper A greyer world outside your door The news of the week Ever typically bleak Yet so better than years gone before

CHORUS And I thought I'd die I thought I'd die I thought I'd die Before I looked you in Those haunted eyes Your haunted eyes Once more

We once without quarrel At point of a barrel Embarked on our journey to loss You taking path A And I the path B Resigned for them never to cross

I dreamed of your fate As you passed through the gate With its promise of work making free While I laboured among Falling souls, old and young Counting down to the final of me

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BRIDGE But sometimes, in the fires of hell The ghost clings tightly to the shell And what is forged within the heart No mortal man can tear apart Then nightmares rip at straining seams And give their way to waking dreams Which carry prey of blood and grime Across the mists of space and time

Now we're pushed in a trance By the firm hand of chance To the midst of a Budapest street I watch the tear form In your eyes grey and warm As my own they unthinkably meet

CHORUS

Comments

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@jeff9

The style and the chord progression & melody feel absolutely perfect for @stephenwordsmith's always cerebral and artful lyrics. Wonderful touch on the vocals--so much finesse to make each word feel carefully considered and delivered. Definitely had an eastern European vibe so when "Budapest" comes in late, it's kind of a delicious payoff. Terrific collaboration here, gents.

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@oddbod

I'm surprised you've never had a collab before. It seems like an inevitable marriage of sorts. Loving the gypsy waltz style of this especially with those touches of wheezy accordion.

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You always have great progressions, but this one appears to be a level or two above. And yet your vocal wraps around it beautifully. Such a great sway to this, like a sea shanty. The pregnant pauses between sections is really cool

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somehow it seems obvious you two would collaborate. not sure I can exactly explain it it just is! something in your art perhaps. I think the 3/4 nails it Mike. it's a story almost too hard to comprehend. a marvellous collaboration.

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oo no apologies needed here MIke surely. You have managed to set these beautifully powerful lyrics to some really deep intriguing music , adore the chord changes and the 3 time plucking works a treat. its so delivate and yet so powerful at the same time. Truly powerful lyrics, and a great collab guys

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@liz561

The contrasts between the major and minor was very effective. It gave me the feel of people sitting at a cafe gazing out at the street, knowing that this was the end of their relationship.

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A word on 'daintiness': Yes, this is a song set against the backdrop of some of humanity's darkest hours. The characters bear wounds that are still fresh and have scars in the heart that will never heal. But it's also a song about a humble being reunited with a life and love he thought he'd left behind - modest as it all may be, it was everything good about existence for him. And there's now the improbable chance of having it back, at least to some degree, despite all that has come to pass. It's an unassuming encounter on an unassuming day in the middle of a life that could only hope to be unassuming. It is going to take a while for reality to set in. Daintiness, for whatever that means in this song, is perfect.

The 3/4 time and accordion accent paint the scene so well. It's very Europe circa 1947, in fair Budapest where we set out scene.

I also would contend that anything from the bridge is 'missing'. I think it says all it needs to - we know they've been through hell and we can tell from everything else that they've found themselves in a better place now. The trouble about the lyricist working from the context of silence takes shot is that it's sometimes hard to know when to stop. In my opinion, you made the better choice.

I do think your performance justifies my word choices, though. Sometimes I listen to a finished collab and wish I'd approached certain words, lines or even verses differently. Didn't feel that for a single syllable here.

One final observation: Another, very different version of this song exists. That one has the title 'I thought I'd die', which is the line that comes across most strongly with that one. I felt the fear and all the narrator had been through. With this one it's the 'once more' - the sheer improbability of having back the precious little that once was lost, against all odds.

This is a beautiful song and I've been listening to it all day. Thank you, Mike.

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This lyrical story is beautiful and heartbreaking and just so well made. And the simple guitar/vocal delivery carry the hope and the grief.

Fantastic collab! Love it!

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@wynia

What interesting chords spiced in here! I love love love the tender waltzing vocal delivery as well! The accordion (?) nice touch! Really enjoyed listening to this 💚

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The stripped-down guitar and voice has the perfect vibe for this time period and storyline. Tragic and romantic. Well done!

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@beacon

Wow. This is a collab that was not only meant to be, but needs to continue! Mike has taken Stephen's incredible lyrics and elevated them even more. Love the waltz time and melodic treatment. This is the way these lyrics needed to be sung.

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@lcad

Wow indeed! Chilling lyrics and performance. Love that diminished chord driving tension at the end of the verse and the way it flips seemlessly from minor and major. This is a gripping piece of storytelling and something unfortunately quite familiar in my family. You've both told the subject well, with humanity and humility. Great work.

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WOW. Just wow. This is literature -- I expect great things from @stephenwordsmith but this is above even that high bar.

Don't doubt yourself, Mike. The nylon strings in waltz time and your gentle tenor are the perfect accompaniment for this. The little organ/accordion touches are just right.

Would that the people who commit these atrocities have the humanity and empathy to ever have the nightmares conveyed by this song.

Again, wow, this lyric. It does not please me to have also used "work makes you free" in a song this month, because it means its on a lot of our hearts.

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I read this lyric and got it, but now hearing it set to this music, I GET it. Even with half the bridge missing, the point is well conveyed. Beautiful music for a touching lyric!

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