bones

oscar asked me if i loved you when you and i first happened he could see it on my face, there was an obvious reaction palms got sweaty, so i lied and told him that i didn’t know but i’d have run into your arms even if i knew you’d let go oscar asked me if i’d rather lose you or lose myself oscar asks me weird questions and it really doesn’t help because i’m trying to get over you and never fall back but it’s going to be difficult, i look at you when i laugh

its a natural reaction, an instinct of sorts because all my best moments used to be yours but it’s not only me, you’re doing the same we share one silent second then both look away

you are written inside my bones i cannot drive you out when you still feel like home you are pouring out in every line you’re the ink on my fingers, the stars in my eyes i cannot fathom that you can’t be mine we could reach the same ending a million times with or without you i’m always a wreck but i know deep down, we can’t go through it again

oscar sits next to you in english and asks you about me it’s really not his business, which he doesn’t ever see he still doesn’t know we broke up, i won’t tell him anything he asks so many questions but never asks the right things oscar sits next to you in english and acts like you’re best mates oscar’s kind of an asshole, but you let him anyway don’t you see how it’s affecting me, i hate to watch you talk oscar keeps asking us questions and i keep falling short

it cuts me deeply to see you’re okay but it cuts me deeper when you turn away we both failed but we gave this all we had we can’t ever redo this can’t ever look back

you are written inside my bones i cannot drive you out when you still feel like home you are pouring out in every line you’re the ink on my fingers, the stars in my eyes i cannot fathom that you can’t be mine we could reach the same ending a million times with or without you i’m always a wreck but i know deep down, we can’t go through it again

when we’re not together, i fall apart my friends say you’re ugly but i think you’re art when i can’t have you, i lie awake thoughts of you don’t leave me, i’m constantly plagued whenever we talk i think i lose my mind you were the first thing i ever had that was mine oscar asked me if i loved you, i didn’t know but i do, and i felt it written inside of my bones