Sounds of inside

by @karlsburg25

Challenge: PERSONAL SOUNDTRACK

Liner Notes

#experimental #indiepop #anthem #meditation #innerdepths

So as some of you know i headed off for a 10 day vipassana meditation on tuesday. Its a truly difficult thing to undertake and unfortunately i couldn't cope this time and had to leave on Day 2. But i see it as a lesson in knowing myself better and being kind to myself.

I've done 6 of these retreats previously, and they can be truly enlightening, and i totally know the benefit of being with silence, but it was simply too much for my mind at the moment. As a bonus it meant i can release a lot of those emotions through a few more tunes

So as soon as I got home i wrote a song which reflects a lot of inner turmoil but also gives and idea of the experience i went through. It started out as a piano and vocal only gentle song then i felt to reflect all the emotions a few more layers should be added ;-)

Lyrics

There i was sat all alone vibrations inside my bones A racing heart the screen flash filled eyes in know cannot be with silence I need something else

A tiny world came down was i wrong? fear of being drowned on my own is it a lack of will ,when time is standing still, for us

There i was just crying inside my heart cannot hide this day so release in a new way

Another world lights up i wasn't wrong be kind to yourself was my song to find a peace inside you can walk to find your own way and leave this place

So many paths within carry us to trust intuition its brave, we must you're never on your own the universe wants us to succeed so let your inner needs come first

So smile and learn........

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When I was in Mumbai in 2018 I went to an amazing Pagoda Temple with a friend of the mother of the mother of my son’s classmate. He talked the people there into letting me meditate even though I didn’t technically have whatever certifications you needed. I think I lasted between 5 and 10 minutes. I continue to read about meditation and write songs about it, but I don’t really do it yet. I love that you gave yourself the grace to recognize you needed to leave. And so far I’ve listened to half of the song, because my daughter interrupted me to get some help with an essay for a college fellowship which is also due tonight. And I hope I’ll get back to listen to the rest once she’s done, but stopping halfway also feels appropriate for this one. Like the time I was listening to Pema Chodron describe being in a rickety boat that dissolves midstream, and on the word dissolve my audiobook was recalled by my library and disappeared from my earbuds.

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ah, I also have a difficult time with meditation. It's tricky to quiet the mind sometimes. Can definitely imagine 10 days being challenging! nevertheless you got back and write this and more. there r great layers of instruments and somehow they sound turmoiled and grand without being too loud. great production choices! something about this reminds me of... yes, james bond!

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You come home from silence and release an emotional bombshell James Bond theme song. It is beautiful and huge but in a beautiful and vulnerable way. There are so many small (and big) touches in this one. Amazing and powerful

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I always wanted to try a silent retreat. Maybe for a few days but holy cow - 10 days?! That sounds tough. But hey this great tune came out of it.
I adore that edgy chord shift after ‘so let your inner needs come first’ which is a. A killer line and B. sung in such a sonically delicious way. Amazing. I am a fan of your songs. It really is like listening to a 90’s Britpop artist I have just discovered that’s been hiding all these years! I’m a 90’s chick so for me that’s like finding gold.

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Mercy, this is even more epic than usual! Just that opening...something about that melody, in the midst of all that ambience, makes me think of one of those calls to prayer echoing over a cityscape - And then by the second verse you've got those soaring harmonies over the cool, dramatic changes, leading into those more positive-sounding chords in the chorus...absolutely both "personal" and "soundtrack" as well as "personal soundtrack" :-).

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My niece just survived a 10day Vipassana retreat somewhere near Colorado. It was her first such retreat and She said she wanted to quit every day for the first six days was so glad it was over after the 10th. Great song very solidly presented

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I’m assuming from the evidence here that your inner landscape is incredibly vast, dramatic, and subject to delightfully odd changes. Must be a challenge to sit with that for ten days. The eastern sounding verses work so well with that more poppy chorus. I have no idea how you make things like this work, but you really do.

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This song is wonderful. you know, If you've done 6 of those maybe you've done enough of that. Sometimes the next step on the path is to take it to the world you live in. Like this song.

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Wow! Again! I am fan. You know it! Youre voice. Youre melodies.

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Some pretty cool melodic twists and turns here! So much drama injected into the arrangement and instrumentation too - it's powerful stuff. I'm totally down with the sentiment of listening and being kind to yourself. Easy to say but not always so easy to follow. Well done on channelling the experience into something creative! Nice work.

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