Did I Imagine It

by @wrenarcher

Liner Notes

This started with one line from something I say to very dear friend every now and again. We have a lot of similar views, experiences and just... a lot of little, similar things in common. So periodically I'll say to her that we're like two pearls from the same shell. The line evolved and got used differently here than I intended, but I like it.

The idea of feeling gaslit about a relationship comes from an experience with my first college girlfriend but also l've had a surprising number of friends who have recently told me, like in just the past six months, a similar story. It's one where two people become extremely close only to have that friendship or relationship dissolve, obliterate for one reason or another... choosing an ex, moving out of state, infidelity, just a whim that’s over or whatever… you name it. I guess it's been on my mind so I went with it.

Production wise I’m surprised how much I like it. I did it all last night. Doing my recent exquisite corps helped a LOT in this regard because it really opened up the idea of just adding more stuff for the sake of adding it and not really having a plan. Thanks FAWM!!! Surprisingly that strategy worked well here I think. My voice though… ugh. I was getting frustrated and tired and there’s even a little sigh of frustration I forgot to edit out at the beginning. It could be better but I want to call it done for now.

#rock #indierock #girlwithguitar

Lyrics

there were moments i'd have given anything rights to my soul, the life I’d built, the entirety, the whole damn lot of it to know you felt the same

but you held everything so close to your vest walls so high i couldn’t fly over them

CHORUS: but I got close we got close yeah we did or maybe... i imagined it imagined it

there were moments vulnerable there were secrets told little pearls from the same shell we held them close none allowed to see…
only you and me or did I imagine it?

CHORUS No we got close we got close yeah we did No I didn’t… no, i didn't imagine it imagine it

but then it was gone like the twilight of waking when a dream is fading did i imagine it did i imagine it

Comments

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Really pretty ethereal music and soulful singing! Great lyrics and your liner notes really ring so true! I especially love that chorus and the whole idea of "Did I Imagine It"!! Nice work on this!!!

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Hi, I'm listening in the car and loving this! I'll comment more in a half hour or so. Hope you are still here to hear!

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@briggs

I appreciated you sharing the background story for the lyric. I love the “little pearls from the same shell” line, and the first verse is just killer. The airy, dreamy quality of the music really supports what I interpreted as the protagonist reminiscing about and/or questioning the relationship. Great song and compelling performance.

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Hi Wren! First, I wanted to say thank you so very much for your kind words on my page. It is so greatly appreciated. I’m so excited I got to be a part of FAWM. It was great to push myself as an artist as well as listen to and meet other wonderful artists like you! I can’t wait for next year!

I love the drive of this piece and emotion you bring to it. It is really honest and the way you take us on the journey with the lyrics and performance make it very universal. Great work, I can’t wait to listen to the rest of your work!

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I dunno about you but I feel sometimes with my voice I’m always trying to balance getting the ‘right’ sound to come out with allowing the emotion of the song to come through. It’s exhausting. I do think you performed this really well though and I felt the hurt of it - especially in the ‘did I imagine… no I didn’t’ lines. It represents perfectly the way abuse directs thoughts into forming circular patterns. The acoustic being so upfront and the fuzz being background is such a good sound. Sort of shoegazey but not quite. I really like what you’ve done here.

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Love the blend of earthy acoustic and the electric both gritty and ethereal. Something about this feels very 90's nostalgic, or maybe it's summoning up the rawness of feelings I had at that time. The intensity of friendships in younger times. I catch a double meaning in "we got close" as in 'we were close friends' but also 'close but not quite all the way'. The whole thing is arranged so beautifully, perfect melodies and the chorus is so strong. The Ooooo vocals gave me chills. You recorded all of this in one night!? Again, as the song progresses I can hear you relaxing into the performance and your vocals get stronger. That little break in your voice towards the end is heart-melting. 💔

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When the strumming hits after the intro I thought I had put on an Ani album. Right on. The electric sounds work really well behind the acoustic strum, the production is star here. The chorus is a strong hook, conversational and memorable.

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@beto Mod

That intro is beautiful, there's so much feeling in the strumming and the first vocal notes. The distorted guitar against the vocals in the chorus works so well! Real lovely!

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@caitlin

I love this journey you take us on! The guitar is so rich and your ethereal oohs are chill worthy. Your vocals come through clear and bright, and also tender and intimate at the same time. And when your voice breaks a tiny bit in the chorus, it's so human and real and beautiful and vulnerable, I wouldn't change a thing. Keep the sigh of frustration, all of it. This whole piece is just amazing.

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This has a warmth in the recording and it sounds like it is in an odd time signature which I don’t think it is so that is really clever and different. Big guitar sounds. The instrumental bits are reminiscent of early Bon Iver. Very cool.

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loved the oohs at the beginning. and great lyrics to capture that feeling - one way or another I think everyone has had that relationship that just... ends. the dreamy (nightmarish?) instrumentation and breathy vocals in the outro are also fantastic.

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I like the idea of letting a song be a little like an exquisite corpse with yourself. There is this gentleness that feels like it comes from listening to yourself and figuring out how you want to respond...

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That chorus is so good. I really love the arrangement too. Ya know i love that 90s adult contemporary vibe. I can feel myself asking my local dj to play it so i could record it off the radio and write down the lyrics in my journal.

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Yeah this is an arrow straight to the heart. Love that refrain, but the whole song is so beautifully sung, and your voice sounds fantastic all the way through. I’ll listen again when I’ve set aside some extra crying time 🥲

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Oh wow, Wren, this sounds great! And such a deeply relatable song. Really gorgeous work, my friend!

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