As You Say Goodbye
by @tcelliott
Liner Notes
#acousticonetake #goodbye #americana
My mother passed a few years ago, now, and sometimes it still hurts. Occasionally, I end FAWM with a goodbye song but I didn't realize it would be something like this as I picked up the guitar tonight. Some things just need to be written, I guess.
Lyrics
I'm trying not to let you see me cry 'Cause I see the look of fear in your eyes You've had a hard life, it's easy to see As hard as it is for you to breathe
I don't want to stay To see you hurt this way And I don't want to be The last thing that you see As you say goodbye
The doctor says it will only get worse Watching you die, an unbearable curse Lying in this bed, you're wearing your years And we both know that the end is near
I don't want to stay To see you hurt this way And I don't want to be The last thing that you see As you say goodbye
I hold your hand in both of mine As you take your last breath The hurting fades, the pain is gone As you welcome death
And now I'm glad I stayed To see you fade away I'm glad I got to be The last thing you would say As you said goodbye As you said goodbye
Comments
Wow. It’s been moving to watch and listen to you process this grief over the last few FAWM seasons. This one could be called Hospice. You’re so honest about how painful it is, not just the having died but the slow process of dying. It feels like such good company for other people as they go through this process. Them that feeling of relief and maybe pride in having withstood it. I found myself adding an “as we said gooodbye” at the very end.
Just gorgeous. Three chords and a heartbreaking truth. Powerful in its simplicity, and still with moments of pure poetry like 'lying in this bed, you're wearing your years'
I actually heard this the other day and I was really touched by it. I have what I would call a complicated relationship with mine, who now has Alzheimer’s. A slow goodbye alright. I felt some solace through your words here. Beautiful.
Oh, my how this pierced me right in the heart. I almost couldn't finish it, but I did, reading the last words through a blurry veil of tears. Lovely singing and guitar work, but geez--the emotional punch of this is extraordinary.
I'm going to a friend's visitation Tuesday and the song could be her son's song. Thank you for sharing this universal song.
Aw TC, I'm in tears. Because the song is so beautiful and I've had the same experience, it's like you're singing straight into my soul. It still hurts even after 17 years, but in a different way. I hope your journey of grief is supported by love and a remembrance of your beautiful wee mammy and all that you shared. ❤️
So poignant and thoughtful of a tough life experience. There is a special kind of honour in being able to be somewhere when someone passes. I've touched on it myself and I'm not looking forward to the day my Mum's number is called up.
So beautiful and moving. What a loving tribute to your mother and testament to your love for her. The details add poignant intimacy. The tender heartfelt delivery is perfect. 💙
Your love for your mother comes shining through in this powerful song. Grief never really goes away, we just learn how to live with it.
Beautiful guitar intro/playing, poignant lyrics and heartfelt vocals. This is a worthy memorial song for recognizing your mother. I was able to hold my mother's hand as she passed, so I totally understand your transition from denial to acceptance and feel fortunate I was able to be there.
Oh man, I relate had to this, even as I have not yet lost either of my parents (though both are 88 and not in great health). The emotion is very heartfelt and comes through so strong. It is a wonderful tribute and the lyric is hard hitting in a great way. Going from " I don't want to be..." to "And now I'm glad I stayed - To see you fade away" gave me goosebumps. Excellent song and I am glad you were able to channel it out. ❤️
A very heartfelt song. Beautiful. Condolences on your loss - my mother passed away a few days after Christmas in 2023, so can totally relate to some of this.
What a beautiful song. You’re right. Some things just need to written. So glad you did.
Damn T.C. this is an incredible song! It just breaks my heart. And I think that is what it is supposed to do. I love how you expressed the feeling of not wanting to stay but staying and being glad you did! This line is so damn good, "Lying in this bed, you're wearing your years" Ain't that the truth! Your guitar picking is lovely and your vocals tender but strong! Quite an awesome song you've written, performed and produced!!!
Your mama told you 'bout the rain!